Have You Ever Been In Love?

Have I?

Have you ever been in love?

I bet you all said yes, like immediately, without thought. Maybe that’s my problem. I think too much, and love is a feeling in your heart, your body. Your soul? That sounds cheesy, but sure, probably accurate. I’ve misunderstood pain for love, because it’s a feeling in my body, heart and soul. An excruciating one. Not to be dramatic, but it’s all I’ve ever known, at least in the context of this so called thing you all call “love”.

Feelings are fuel. They propel us to move in ways we might not otherwise, to do crazy things. Feelings definitely are not facts. So can you say factually with 100 percent certainty that you’ve been in love? Probably, for most of you it’s still an unequivocal yes. I bet you know how to love and be loved. Maybe for you it comes naturally.

It’s not you. It’s me: Chronically unimpressed. Eternally underwhelmed. I want everything to explode - a blow to the brain that shatters my skull and kills me upon impact and I see the light and go to…